It's been a while

Well, I suppose I should post on this blog which no one will read. I enjoy doing this. Why am I not in bed? I have class at noon. I'm going to be so tired tomorrow. This sucks. This suckks. Anyway, here's a blip from a post I already put up on another site, it's beautiful:

"In my head I keep seeing an image. There's a house on a beach. I'm standing in the breeze with my hands in my pockets, rubbing the smooth shells I've collected. My feet are buried in the cream sand. There is a storm in the distance, blurring the line between the turbulent sea with the angry skies, trapping the sun and erasing the horizon. I close my eyes and breath in the seaweed, the sand, the salt, the smell of a barbecue in the distance. For one instance I won't deal with the chore of thinking. In this moment I won't be awake, I will be asleep in this vision, listening to the lullaby of the waves.

That part is true. If I close my eyes, really close them and hide this reality I subject myself to every day, then the vision becomes a truth for an instant. As you can tell from the helpful myspace indicator at the bottom, I'm listless. Without list. Anxious for something I don't think anyone is willing or even capable of providing. Anyone.

There's a party two doors down from where I'm sitting on the floor. Our Residential Advisor is participating, so any hopes of it being put to a halt by some authoritarian figure is null. null. nullll.

And... still maybe I'll lie in bed and float in that space between here and the shore in my dreams. And listen for someone calling out to me something beautiful, but not audible. It could be a cry from the party down the hall. Or maybe it's someone I'm wrestling with in the depths of my thoughts making me soul-search where I'm afraid to go. But it draws me out, over the waves and into the storm in the everything in front of my vision. Somewhere from my safe spot where I can see, but stand without slipping. Its tension is unbearable."

Auf Wiedersehen

I'm sad to be leaving, I say again. I went to church today, which was at 9:00. I'm sorry to say I feel asleep once or twice (whoops). I just had some soup which was surprisingly good, as it had ham and my feelings for ham are along the same lines as my feelings for celebrities who endorse political parties.

Last night, Khelsy and Katie came over to hang out. It's interesting to be socializing with Khelsy, who is an ex of one of my best friends, because when they were dating, I really didn't get along with her. Now that they aren't romantically involved (they say), I really enjoy being her friend. But I digress...

We watched Gus Van Saint's "Elephant" for some time. I wasn't too enthusiastic about doing so, as that movie just makes me 1) afraid to go to any high school; and 2) very very sad. Yet we tried to watch it all the same. Tyson Bowen soon joined us, and therefore the movie (bearing an "R" rating) was put to a stop. We got maybe 30 minutes into "The Princess Bride" when Katie began to get restless. So we stood around for a little bit trying to figure out what to do and never actually doing anything. Eventually, they left around 10:50 or so and I played piano until I went to bed.

Isn't my life just fascinating? Makes me so glad I started this blog! Wow!

Blog beginnings

January 1, 2005. Here's a post. real quick. More to come, I swear, I just wanted to get on a post on the first day of the year.